going back.

highs and lows.
ups and downs.

always twisting,
always moving.

Driving down the winding roads to San Antonio, to go home, was wonderful. I had had a horrible week, and was really looking forward to being somewhere comfortable and familiar, with people I love and who love me in return.

And I wasn't disappointed.

Just spending time with my people -- my people -- was refreshing, renewing.
I saw my best friends,
I hugged my best friends,
I rejoiced in the having of my best friends.
I appreciated them even more
than I ever had before.

and now? now, I'm back in Abilene.
and I'm way happier than I have been.
after a wonderful weekend at home,
a weekend of rest and renewal,
I am able to be myself. I'm able
to cope with my problems and
be confident and friendly.
and it's wonderful.

so up and down.
high and low.
whatever.
I'll live.

getting married? having kids? whoa.

I am growing up.
I am growing up.
I am growing up.

whoa.

I'm actually able to
start thinking about
getting married.
about having kids.
and it's not completely
ridiculous.

I could be married within
like 5 years and it wouldn't
be freakishly weird.

this clip from scrubs
makes me think
and kind of makes me
want to start that part
of my life sooner rather
than later.