So what's happening now? Well, I'm working on my scholarship and college applications, trying to make that monumental decision of where I will go to college. I honestly don't think that it's fair that people my age, have to make decisions which will change their lives forever. It's so much pressure; we have so many choices to make- public or private? should I go for my dream or be financially savvy? how much debt am I willing to go into in order to get a good education? what will my monthly loan payments be for the next 15 years? what will I do with my life? how far is too far away? am I good enough to go to that school? will they accept me? will I raise my class rank at all? There's so much pressure, it's a miracle anyone gets through it to walk across that stage and know that you're succeeding not just because of your own hard work, but because of your parents, your teachers, your friends and family. You just want to make them proud.
So currently, I have applied to four universities:
- Baylor University
- Abilene Christian University
- University of Mary Hardin-Baylor
- Texas State University- San Marcos
Now, if you've ever even spoken to me before, you'll know that Baylor University is my dream school. I've been talking about going there all of my life, and guess what? I got accepted to Baylor! Now comes the hard part of deciding if I want to go into debt for the rest of my life, and to be honest, I don't. But I feel like I'm intentionally letting my dream die, so it's a struggle to make that decision, but I honestly don't believe I will be attending Baylor in the fall. When I received that letter on Friday, cradled in heavy green cardstock announcing that I had been accepted to join the Baylor Class of 2013, I felt honored to have been accepted, but I didn't feel like it would be a reality. I believe that God has a greater plan for me than I had for myself and that going to Baylor would be holding me back. Instead, I'm looking into Abilene Christian University. There I can get a good scholarship based on my ACT score (which was a 31- and I'm retaking in December) and it offers the major I'm interested in- which is Communication Sciences and Disorders. So mom and I will be visiting ACU next Friday and I'll be making some decisions.
